Have you ever?

Have you ever had a random longing and wondered why the thought even crossed your mind? Maybe these feelings brew naturally based on real necessities. Or maybe we only long for things after our surroundings lead us to believe we want them. Movies, magazines, weather, relationships. Our everyday environment influences our desires just as strongly as the media. Movies will show you a relationship so perfect, you just cry at the reality that is your life. Magazines will ask you questions about your best friend making you feel bad about how little you know; and give you tons of adventurous ideas making you want to try them all at once. Currently, this outdoor perfection that is autumn makes me think of the fair. When I think of the fair I think back to any piece of media I've ever seen dealing with adorable carnival dates and fun. As I start to make plans for everything to run smoothly and cute, I end up having to settle for going with the flow. As a teenager, the courses we run can result in adventure by nature. Why do we strive so strenuously to achieve a certain feeling? Instead of trying to obtain what it seems like we should want, let's stay young. Will there be one willing to float along side me in my life's lazy river?