Chapter 12: Senior Year.

It is so weird to live my life now thinking about how just about everything that I do is for the last time. As a senior in high school, I'm closing a lot of doors in my life in order to prepare for, hopefully, something much greater. I can say that coming to the end of the road with a lot of my friends makes me a much more emotional person. And I'm also a lot more blatantly honest; there's no more time to be fake. I've had to cut a lot of people off, and straight up not let a lot of people in. Not to say that I know it all, but I definitely feel that I've grown in my abilities to discriminate real from pseudo relationships. Caution: new life ahead; all dead weight must go. Wrapping up the first tournament of my last club volleyball season has definitely scurried my emotions. I played so much harder knowing that I'll never be back to play at that convention center ever again. I found myself quietly looking around at my teammates when we hung out in the hotel, just appreciating the opportunity to do what I love with such awesome friends. I think more in depth now. I consider my future with everything I see, whether it's the results of my own decisions (both positive and negative) or someone else in my life. At the same time that I'm thinking through it all, I'm making sure to let go at the appropriate time and live in these moments. Excited for my next chapter, I'm not going to miss a single word of the one I'm in.